To have or not to have

These days we have the liberty of having a choice in picking a career, compared to the days of our ancestors, who either became a farmer, a fisherman or a trader depending on their status and locality. Or probably our parents, particularly, the ladies, who either became a teacher, a nurse or a secretary who claims to eventually sit on the boss' lap.

Having no choice may not be such a bad thing, considering the mild headaches we get at a crossroad in deciding a career, beginning with the specific university degree to obtain.

Had my fair share of tossing and turning on my bed - weighing all the possible pros and cons to
my decision, and fickly choosing from A to B. It was either a food techonologist or a pharmacist.

For those who know me, guess you know which I chose. How did I come to such a conclusion, I really don't know. My sister, now, going through the same motion as if it is a vicious cycle questioned me, 'What made you choose this to that?' .. I have no idea. Am I regretting it? ... I remain clueless.

Guess one will never know and there isn't really a right or wrong answer when one is choosing from two decent career options. Probably it comes down to one's passion, try to listen to the voice from within and go with your guts? One may point out it's illogical sense or the lack of practicality but what the heck, am not going to lose my sanity figuring out the 'What If's' in life. I shall not regret the choice I made (even though I am finding it hard to sustain motivation at work) but will strive to work around it.

As for my sister, here's her dilemma:

It looks like two ends of a spectrum so it can't be too difficult to choose from one to the other, trust me, it is just as difficult.

Desiring the simplicity of life.

Tuesday-Morning-Blues...

Had snippets of thoughts and emotions as I was browsing through the internet this morning - reading my usual favourite blogs and catching up on updates at the much 'neglected' Friendster (as it slowly phases out by the preferred Facebook which took us by storm)...

Event #1: Read this from my most admired blogger, '..articles rejected over and over by magazines and newpapers.' (shockingly surprised by such a statement).

Thought : She writes with such flare that I never fail to read her posts to it's end despite the many words, having my attention span willingly stretched. Hence for me to read the above, I was shocked. Who am I then to want to write? How in the world are my 'dream-of-articles' be known and what more to be published? Such perfection is being rejected not just once, but over and over again somehow 'shattered' my dreams of being a writer.

Feelings : Discouraged. Hopeless. Sad.

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Event #2: Came across, "DONE!!! Looking for JOB.." Well to be very honest, I don't know the context of this shoutout but I am leaning towards the interpretation of a search for a new job.

Thought: A spurt of 'excitement' came over me. And it finally weaned off and an uprising sense of relief swept over me - as the exclaimed DONE sounded very much as though she has finally 'escaped' the somewhat frustrating circumstance / maybe she is finally leaving behind the 'old' and now about to embark on something new. And the word 'looking' seems so casually relaxing, as she is allowed to quit her previous job while searching for a new one.

Feelings : Wished I could be the one exclaiming the above. Possible jealous.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

This morning I prayed this very simple prayer:
"Heavenly Father, I lay down all my dreams and hope on You. Trusting that you have plans for me - even on this very day that You've made... "

Initially I begin my devotion with Psalms 9:10,
"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you."

These words of assurance warmed my heart and was impressed upon reading on Jeremiah 29:11-13. Read on and you will understand how wonderfully real He can be, speaking to us throuh His word.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me & come & pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

I have read these verses many atimes but this time it was an urging command - telling me that to know His name is to call upon Him and this means to pray to Him. He reassured me of a hope and future in which I prayed for this morning. Have always pondered on the true meaning of seeking Him with all my heart and today I knew just what He meant, i.e. desiring to be in a relationship with Him.

All Glory to Him. Amen.