Look beyond the Mondays

HOD passed on the following comments (paraphrased) and it has been with me ever since:

1. "It's not right to see your work as of tomorrow - to only know your tasks limited to a day's work. It's beyond that particularly in the kind of work we do here."

2. "Do you know why you're here?"

The first thing that slapped me on the face was that the HOD is seriously doubting my motivation or rather purpose in this course of work I chose.

And to be fair to me, it has been my first week - should I be faulted to only see the tasks laid on my plate? Am I not showing much enthusiasm in what I do?

Adapting.

Taking initiatives; pro-active and to 'go-out-there' were not exactly what I was trained to do for the past years of my working experience. So utterly lost.

Advocate? What exactly am I supposed to do? Am given a blank piece of paper and supposed to come up with a plan of action based on the needs/ requirements given.

Am I in the right place and at the right time? Yet again, another question pops up in this exhausting mind of mine.

Today, someone asked, "Started work? Are you happy?" Good intentional question but felt a pinch - am I supposed to be happier?

Here comes Monday...